It’s really really weird, but after watching ‘What Happens in Vegas (2008)‘ for the second time (maybe third or even fourth)… I realise why I detest festive seasons, or so I claim.
I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching the last couple of weeks (then again, I could have been doing so unknowingly, my whole life), everyday I learn a little something more about myself. I’ve always been puzzled, sometimes I don’t even know why I do what I do. I lack understanding, and I realise now how important it is to gain whatever knowledge, regardless.
I think I actually do like festive seasons (makes sense since I do love group gatherings and meeting new people), I just can’t find the right formula to enjoy it. I could also be avoiding having to enjoy it. I guess the more logical or possibly illogical reason ‘why’ is because I feel it is simply the right feeling to have at this point of time – the breakup, though not entirely recent, and everything else.
Sounds really complicated doesn’t it? It’s quite simple really. I’m a ENFP. Haha.
So, when I was watching the replay, I figured, even though I’m a ‘E’ and my energy source is from external sources, perhaps it’s time to cultivate my ‘I’ and learn to gather energy from within for a change?
Everyday is this race to the finish line, I only have time to think what’s next, but never enough to go deeper into details.
So yes, this year, I shall behave more like an ‘I’ type for a change, or not. We’ll see 😛